The Three A's
Something I have noticed that goes with all my troubles with having chronic pain is what I call the three A's: annoyance, anger, and all over tired . It's just a state I find myself in when I am not fully balanced at that time. If I need food, sleep, water, or just peace and quiet I tend to become a monster and those three A's show up. Annoyance is what starts first. Anything small bothers me and then it grows, and bothers me more. It could be something as little as my clothes not fitting right to someone saying something slightly rude and me taking it the wrong way. Then, it goes to anger . After I'm fully annoyed by whatever poked me the wrong way, I blow up. I become the monster that I don't want to be. Everyone around me breathing makes me want to scream and if I can't escape to another place, I will scream and lash out. I try not to, and it's better, but its still a problem. After anger starts to slow down, all over tired smacks me in the face an