Pain Relief

Something I wish I knew well was being pain free. I have few memories of being pain free, a lot of these memories I don't remember purposely because I didn't feel good or I didn't want to remember how I felt.

I remember the times I felt good, though.

I remember the first time I ever felt true relief. I remember wanting to cry because I didn't know what this feeling was but I just smiled because it was a magical moment that freed me.

I understood what "pain free" really meant and truly felt like. I felt lighter, all over. My toes could move and wiggle. My fingers could extend further than ever before. I could grasp things and not want to cringe or just stop because it was uncomfortable. I felt like my knees could bend and I wouldn't want to fall over after a second of repeating a motion. I felt that my body wasn't my body anymore. My back felt like I could sit straight and roll my shoulders back enough to have proper posture.

If this wasn't really my body at that moment, what could I do with it? I remember asking myself this.

I remember smiling so much that my cheeks got sore but even then, that didn't hurt either.


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